As a Forty Plusser I know that ANXIETY isn’t just having trouble breathing. ANXIETY is waking up at 3am from a dead sleep because your heart is racing. ANXIETY erupts for no reason. ANXIETY is stressing over things that may or may not be real. ANXIETY is questioning your faith, how could my creator allow me to feel this way?

ANXIETY is calling your friend 3 hours before she gets up to work, hoping that she will respond so you can stop thinking about the attack. ANXIETY is a shower at 2 a.m. ANXIETY is your changing mood in a matter of minutes. ANXIETY is an uncontrollable tremor. ANXIETY is crying, real and painful tears.

ANXIETY is nauseous. ANXIETY is crippling. ANXIETY is dark. ANXIETY is having to make up an excuse after a behavioral attack. ANXIETY is fear. ANXIETY is concern. ANXIETY is physically and emotionally draining.

ANXIETY is raw. ANXIETY is real. ANXIETY is a fight with your spouse, even if you are not angry. ANXIETY is breaking you at the slightest annoyance. ANXIETY is flashbacks. ANXIETY is “what if?” Anxiety is a lot of “what’s wrong” and “I don’t know.” Your feelings matter just because you’re upset by something that others do, it doesn’t make you crazy or worthless. Some of the most successful people in life have anxiety. This is not your fault. This is not the end. You are strong. You’re smart. You are brave. You are worthy. Those middle in the night panic attacks are scary AF!!! When mine first started it came out of the blue. It’s so crazy how your fighting with yourself. Trying to tell yourself to calm down but your mind won’t let you. 😩😭
It’s like impending doom all of a sudden! Thank God for family & friends I can call in the middle of the night to calm me down. I wouldn’t wish Anxiety on no one!!! The air hunger is what gets me, and when my skin gets cold and tingly, I know I’m going into panic attack mode. It’s the worst feeling in the world. I have to work hard to regulate my breathing, by taking deep breaths through my nose, and exhaling through my mouth, until I can finally breathe normally, and feel grounded. When I first started getting them 6 yrs ago, I would get them +/- 3-4 times a day. Now, I get them once in rare while, but, when I do, it’s still quite frightening.

😢😢 Anxiety is very scary. Not everyone understands what we go through and also what they go through seeing us like that. The thing is we all have very similar and also very different symptoms. Therefore what one feels the other might not and vice versa. Cheers to all of you who try to fight this every single minute, hour, day. We are all stronger than we think we are just for enduring this day in and day out. Never give up!!! We all got this !!!

3 thoughts on “Anxiety

  1. I totally relate with what you’ve written. I hate how anxiety creeps up on me out of nowhere and just brings me down. I’m not able to sleep, I push people away because I just can’t explain what’s going on inside me. 😓
    Hopefully with help it will get better over time.

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  2. With an alphabet soup of disorders Anxiety is the most crippling. I feel your pain.

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