As a Forty Plusser I had my fair shares of wicked curveballs in life.
For too long in my life I have tried to ignore things that needed fixing and attention. I tried to live a happy go lucky life. I lived a life of total pretence. I did not want people to notice how broken I was inside. I was ashamed to let down my guard. I was too afraid to drop the mask!!! I was afraid to show my true feelings. To me, these ghosts of my past was too embarrassing to share with anyone!
To me, healing was a 360 degrees U-turn. I also know that I won’t be my old self EVER. My old self had evaporated in the air. My old self is gone forever. But that’s okay!!! I have reached a point in my life where I just couldn’t care less! I tend to practise more selflove. I am stronger. I am more confident. I don’t have time for bullshit. I think I have a touch of wisdom. I am not a pretender anymore and it is a heavenly feeling!!! What a relieve!!!
I want to compare myself with an egg. When an eggshell is cracked, it is broken, the shell cannot be fixed again, ever! Okay, you can glue all the pieces together but it will never be 100% fixed. The outer is broken and the inner is exposed. Now the egg has more potential… The egg can be used as scrambled egg, pouch egg, normal egg. Furthermore, the egg can be used in recipes to bind the flour together. Cracking an egg is necessary to make everything from a basic scrambled egg to more complex dishes.
You get the picture? You can be broken, but still have immense value to those around you.
There was a point in my life that I cracked!! Down on my knees… no hope. Rock bottom. Just like the eggshell cracked – it felt like my intestines was ripped open. I felt exposed to criticism. I felt crucified! It took me forever to find inner wisdom and peace. Years! It was easy to drown in my own sorrows. Then one day, I suddenly noticed that I had the strength to talk about my experiences. I wasn’t ashamed anymore. That very first moment that I shared my story with persons that had similar challenges and experiences than mine, a big weight was lifted off my shoulders. What a sigh of relief!! There is hope in life. Life is a journey. Life goes on. Everybody has a story to tell.
Please share your story of inspiration.
I always wondered why I had to go through so much shit in life. Actually, my crap, helps to inspire people day by day. I am now “THAT EGG”, without the shell that actually has a purpose in life.
Some of my stories:
Wisdom: Life is all about evolution. What looks like a mistake to others has been a milestone in my life. Even if people have betrayed me, even if my heart was broken, even if people misunderstood or judged me, I have learned from these incidents. We are human and we make mistakes, but learning from them is what makes the difference. Amisha Patel
Wisdom: The most important thing any broken individual can do is keep their chin up and keep moving forward. Matt Hardy