As a Forty Plusser I really don’t know how to feel today. I have bipolar and I am usually triggered by any negative situation. But not today. I feel sort of “blunt”. I don’t feel depressed, down in the dumps, anxious or anything. Not even happy.
Two weeks ago I almost thought it was the end the world with this Covid 19 virus. I went from totally totally depressed to total anger… then I began to feel sorry for all the people in the world… then I cried for hours at a time… then suddenly I had all this “survival plans”… then NOTHING. I don’t feel a thing.
This past weekend was Easter-weekend. (Good Friday 10 April 2020). Never before had we spent an Easter like this. Lockdowned in our house. But I am slowly getting used to this “Lockdown way of life”. I think that part of a human’s survival instinct is to adapt in life. To accept certain things and just move on with life not matter what?
There are days that I really hope that it is only me that is experiencing or imagining about this virus. Maybe I am hopefully delusional!!!!!!! Really!!! I pinch myself regularly throughout the day hoping that I will wake up and that none of this is the truth.
My psychiatrist called me yesterday to hear if I am coping during the lockdown. My psychiatrist, on the contrary, called each of her patients to find out if they were still okay. I personally think it was very thoughtful of her. It is believed that more people will commit suicide because they cannot deal with this uncertainty and negative circumstances.
So how is life in our household?
My kids need to temporarily study online . This is not ideal, but all universities in South Africa are prohibited from offering classes in lecture rooms. This is to help avoid physical contact with other persons.
My children (18 and 19 years old). My children are not allowed to visit their girlfriend and boyfriend. It is currently against the law in South Africa. How bad? They miss each other and it is heartbreaking as a parent to watch it. They miss each other sooooo much! Young love…
We all kind of miss our “normal life”. We miss routine. We miss people!!
The day South Africa recorded its first positive Covid-19 case on 5 March was a day that altered our way of life drastically, and South Africans will not be able to return to their normal way of doing things, says the chief epidemiologist at the centre of the country’s Covid-19 fight.Professor Salim Abdool Karim, an epidemiologist and infectious disease specialist working with the government in the fight against the coronavirus, has some sobering news: There will be no return to normal.Covid-19 has drastically altered the way we live now, and it will continue to do so in the future as people become more aware of the everyday preventative measures they need to take.