Bipolar spike… 28 December

For those of you that can relate…

As a Forty Plusser with bipolar life feels super sh*t and crappy today.  Mind my language and please mind my negative attitude!  I have lost all enthusiasm to blog.   Actually… no enthusiasm for life in general… My brain feels foggy and I just have no words… don’t have physical strength today.   My arms feel heavy, my head feels like it is weighing 100 ton.

I was “good” for the last two months.   No I have spiked downwards.   Maybe the silly season, that I find real exhausting, triggered me.  I have no suicidal thoughts.  I am just so tired. I am in some sort of slow motion mode.   I struggle to concentrate.

I drink my medicine like clockwork, everyday – Seroquel, Epitec.  Today is just a bad day.  I am just so irritated with life right now!  It feels like I want to flip my desk over – or even through the window… but luckily I don’t have the physical strength to actually do it…

It took me almost an hour to type this…

I know this will pass…

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16 thoughts on “Bipolar spike… 28 December

  1. Feel better babe. Days like that suck, I’be been there. Hang in there and I hope tomorrow is a much happier day for you ❤️


  2. Dec 28, 2018 — 2:02 pm

    This is an especially tough time of year for many of us. For some more than others. I can’t imagine what you’re dealing with, but I know that you’re doing everything you can do physically. This season triggers so many tough emotions, but it also is a time for us to reflect on what God has done for us. He knows all our sorrows and emotions. He came to this earth in human flesh

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    1. Thank you for commenting

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  3. Dec 28, 2018 — 2:03 pm

    To experience everything we do. He also loves us so much that he willingly

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  4. Dec 28, 2018 — 2:06 pm

    Died for us. Call on his name. He will help you. Sorry for all the breaks in this message. I’m typing on my phone and my fingers are too big. I will pray that God brings you peace. I know that he can. In the meantime know that there are those who care about you!

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  5. Hope you feel better soon, you seem like a genuinely lovely lady. And I like your style of writing from the heart 😊


      1. Just call me John, astijake is my grandsons name 😊

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  6. I know the feeling. It’s been following me lately more or less most days. I think it’s mostly about this darkness and my sleepless nights…and I got some bad news before Christmas but I was tired before that too…Today is better day…and soon when the spring comes it will help! I hope it helps you too.


  7. I understand you perfectly. I am Bipolar ADD Ant 2 more illness and even with God’s help is very hard. I have days like that, fewer then they used to be thank to the Spirit of God that holds me and slow don the illness so I can feel is coming and prepare myself. I will pray for you now.

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    1. Sorry to hear that you also struggle with this illness. Thanks for understanding 🌺

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  8. I was sick since age 5


  9. Hang in there. Tomorrow is another day.

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  10. I’m forty+ as well and feeling/going thru the same thing today. Let’s try to support each other thru it. Hugs, CynG

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